Currently Reading // Maud; BEDIA DAY 6

Hola mis amigos,
I've been super busy over this weekend and I only just got back from a cute festival. I thought I'd do a Currently Reading as they are super quick and means that I will still not fail a day!
So, I've been at a festival all day and managed to start and almost finish Harry Potter!

 It is really good so far. The beginning was slightly confusing as it skips lots of time and I was often confused where I was.

I prefer it now that I am further into the book. I am on page 235 out of 340. I like the adventure that they have been on but I am slightly like...was that it? I expected a bit more but I suppose it's a play so they can't do too much. The script is quite a nice format to read in as a bit of a change. I will update you more on it when I finish and have more time.
I also promise that my posts will get better, i've just had lots to do recently :-)
(also, after this I'm planning on reading It Ends With Us by Colleen Hoover! (the august BOTM))

Happy Reading,

Only Ever Yours Review // Maud; BEDIA DAY 5

Guten Tag,
I just finished this book and I'm just...what is my life anymore.
It is 11:10 and I need to write down all my feeling in an hour so that I don't miss a BEDIA day, so let us begin!
(I will start with a non-spoiler section)
So, while we were at YALC, we went to the "Morally Complicated YA" panel (with Louise O'Neill (the author of this book (who we also met after)), Emerald Fennel, Melvin Burgess and Manuela Salvi). All of these authors are seen as "controversial" and now I can see why.

Only Ever Yours is a YA/NA novel which covers topics such as Feminism (well...anti-feminism), drug addiction, eating disorders and many, many more! It mainly focuses on the oppression of women and how controlled they are. This book really shows how far we've come but also how far we still need to go because, although it's cut to the "extreme", there are some things in this book which I personally recognised from my daily life. This really surprised me as I was expecting to not relate in ways that I did.
It is in a Fantasy world where females are created in labs and genetically modified to be "perfect". They go through 16 years of schooling and then after learning all these horrible things like fat-shaming others, comparing others to themselves and being taught that you do whatever men want you to do (sexually etc), they are either chosen to be a companion by an Inheritant (man), a concubine (prostitute) or a chastitiy (nun).
That is all I'm going to say because I don't want to give too much away. Please go and pick this book up and read it and beware...it is weird and it will DESTROY you.

I REALLY enjoyed this book and recommend it to everyone (however, if you get triggered easily or are anxious/ have any mental illness to do with weight then I would warn you that this might not be a great book for you :-/ 

BYE BYE TO EVERYONE WHO HASN'T READ THE BOOK! 

A Short Post // Maud; BEMIA DAY 4

Hello stupendous people,
This is going to do a really short post talking about my life and how I'm finding my book because I have been really busy all day and don't feel great.
Today I bought another book...oops. It was £2 in a charity shop. It is Six Of Crows.
I really need to stop.
(WARNING: I AM SUPER MISERABLE IN THIS POST AND IF THIS IS THE FIRST BLOG POST OF OUR YOU EVER READ THEN...I PROMISE I AM NOT ALWAYS THIS IRRITABLE)

She's actually really sweet and kind and supportive and funny and amazing and beautiful but none of you get to meet her in real life unfortunately :(

It is 10:11 in the evening right now. I hate evenings because I always think of death and my fears when I'm alone and it freaks me out. I also think about people I feel like I've lost or losing. And the horrible parts of my past.
I'm really jolly aye! {Seriously? Aye? You have sunken so low}
I'm 200 pages through Only Ever Yours. It's absolutely amazing right now, it's probably not making me feel any better but it's okay because I'll be okay tomorrow :-)
 I don't want to go back to school, I really dislike most people in my school (if you have stumbled across this blog and you are in my year and have found out who I am then...I'm sorry).
Apparently things get better as you move up through the school but it hasn't really turned out like that for me...this is a brief summary of my years of secondary school --->>>

Year 7: - I was really happy
            - I got good grades
            - I had a few close friends
            - I was super confident
             - I was generally a good person to be around

Year 8: - I had my first panic attack
            - I turned into a right bitch {completely untrue}
            - I tried to be someone who I really wasn't
            - I would walk out my lessons
            - I dressed in a way that wasn't for me (tight jeans and cropped tops)
            - I was super attention seeking {don't feel bad I did that too}
             - I cried practically everyday
            - I wore makeup even though I really didn't want to
            - You get the idea

Year 9: - Started off around the same
            - I got a counsellor who didn't really help
            - I realised that I am attracted to women (i'd been obvious to other people before (apparently)                 but I had never really thought about it before)
            - I was trying to get over my horrible Year 8 experiences
            - I was still pretty much hating life
            - I met my dance teacher and started feeling a stronger connection with dance (which helped                  me more than you can imagine)
           - I met my best friends/ got closer to my best friends
           - I started getting much better grades {thanks to me doing her maths homework for her over FaceTime ;)}
           - I started reading more
           - I started loving myself much more
           - I started getting teased but I try to ignore it


So that is practically my secondary school experience so far. Quite bad really but I hope next year will be a turn around. I actually feel much better after writing this post. I feel like I have blurted it out to the internet which is not always the best idea but...erm oh well!

Sorry for the sloppy grammar etc but it's late and its now 10:51 in the evening.
Happy Reading,